Words that make up my life...

2009-07-12T19:26:00.003+08:00

never easy to stop loving...
zoey said "ZOEY ROCKS!!"
random hor =.=

2009-07-12T19:26:00.001+08:00

never easy to stop loving...
zoey said "ZOEY ROCKS!!"
random hor =.=

2009-07-12T19:23:00.000+08:00

I'd Lie by Taylor Swift

I don't think that passenger seat
Has ever looked this good to me
He tells me about his night
And I count the colors in his eyes
He'll never fall in love
He swears, as he runs his fingers through his hair
I'm laughing 'cause I hope he's wrong
And I don't think it ever crossed his mind
He tells a joke, I fake a smile
But I know all his favorite songs
And I could tell you
His favorite color's green
He loves to argue
Born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful
He has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love himI'd lie
He looks around the room
Innocently overlooks the truth
Shouldn't a light go on
Doesn't he know that I've had him memorized for so long
And he sees everything black and white
Never let nobody see him cry
I don't let nobody see me wishin' he was mine
I could tell youHis favorite color's green
He loves to argueBorn on the seventeenth
His sister's beautifulHe has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love himI'd lie
He stands there, then walks away
My God, if I could only sayI'm holding every breath for you
He'd never tell you
But he can play guitarI think he can see through everything but my heart
First thought when I wake up is
My God, he's beautifulSo I put on my make-up
And pray for a miracleYes, I could tell you
His favorite color's greenAnd he loves to argueOh, and it kills me
His sister's beautiful
He has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him...
if you ask me if I love him...
I'd lie

2009-06-04T14:03:00.002+08:00

情歌
詞：陳沒
曲：伍冠諺
編曲：陳建騏

時光是琥珀
淚一滴滴被反鎖
情書再不朽
也磨成沙漏

青春的上游
白雲飛走
蒼狗與海鷗
閃過的念頭
潺潺的溜走

命運好幽默
讓愛的人都沉默
一整個宇宙
換一顆紅豆

回憶如困獸
寂寞太久而漸漸溫柔
放開了拳頭
反而更自由

慢動作繾綣膠捲
重播默片
定格一瞬間
我們在告別的演唱會
說好不再見

你寫給我
我的第一首歌
你和我十指緊扣
默寫前奏
可是那然後呢
還好我有
我這一首情歌
輕輕的
輕輕哼著
哭著笑著
我的
天長地久

命運好幽默
讓愛的人都沉默
一整個宇宙
換一顆紅豆

回憶如困獸
寂寞太久而漸漸溫柔
放開了拳頭
反而更自由

長鏡頭
越拉越遠越來越遠
事隔好幾年我們在
懷念的演唱會
禮貌的吻別

陪我唱歌
清唱你的情歌捨不得
短短副歌
心還熱著
也該告一段落
還好我有
我下一首情歌
生命宛如靜靜的
相擁的河
永遠
天長地久

2009-05-20T14:44:00.002+08:00

荧光飞舞的梦境
抓不住温暖的光芒
红发的天神
有我够不着的手掌
云端仰望天国始终是太高的墙
彩虹跌落一地
摩天轮旋转着世界
地平线上的梦想
误会一场
藤蔓有没有生长
开出蓝色的花朵
关上太阳
就看不见悲伤
荧光飞舞的梦境
啦拉啦飞翔
蓝色鸽子画下的风景
在褪色前就被遗忘
眉心眼角指尖
没有蹉跎无所谓感伤
旋转木马的季节
音乐叮当作响
时间撒下的碎片
碎片割破的手掌踮起脚尖
天国始终是太高的墙

taken from--我的路MYWAY3蓝色饼干BLUECOOKIES/寂地

2009-04-24T21:37:00.002+08:00

二缺一 by 蔡卓妍

屋里像个空壳夜里辗转反侧
思绪正在拉扯心情很忐忑
又开始想你了怀念我们的歌
画面每一幕收藏在记忆的铁盒

黑与白的选择去或留怎么取舍
所有的回忆像本厚厚的纪念册
没有你在我身旁乱了方向前路也曲折
独自面对身边没人陪

眼泪滴进了咖啡充满药水的苦味
让我受罪独自面对孤单的滋味
筑起墙围向后退跌倒了心力交瘁
假使从来只存在我一个
没有和你穿越底端的沼泽

今天即使我单手拔河也不觉得坎坷
两个人的时候你站在我左右
肩并肩靠着头甜蜜的合奏
我想哭的时候你拉着我的手
雨季过后的彩虹定能天长地久
所有的是是非非独自面对身边没人陪

无言以对独自面对身边没人陪(ah多么想和你相对)
眼泪滴进了咖啡充满药水的苦味(为什么不完美)
让我受罪独自面对孤单的滋味(我会尝试单身飞)
筑起墙围向后退跌倒了心力交瘁(习惯独自面对)

I just like the tie3 he2 =)

Tears + Coffee = ? (bitter)^2 or Coffee with NaCl2? Okay pardon me, I'm a bit obsess in how coffee can be use to express certain kind of feeling =X

Black n White, Stay or Go, effective contrast!

If you seen through what it really means, participating in a tug-o-war using a single hand isn't as tough as him not being at her side. Or that's what I interpret it as.

From what I know, rainbow doesn't last forever instead it is one of the phenomenon that disappear in a few short minutes but that is why rainbows are precious!

Okay basically I came across this lyrics, thinking that the words and phrases are effective choices to convey the thoughts of a lonely soul? Erm, maybe the how one misses one...

2009-04-18T18:45:00.002+08:00

You Can by David Archuleta

Take me where I’ve never been
Help me on my feet again
Show me that good things come to those who wait
Tell me I’m not on my own
Tell me I won’t be alone
Tell me what I’m feeling isn’t some mistake‘
Cuz if anyone can make me fall in love
You can

Save me from myself
You canAnd it’s you and no one else
If I could wish upon tomorrow
Tonight would never endIf you asked me
I would followBut for now I’ll just pretend‘
Cuz if anyone can make me fall in love
You can

Baby, when you look at me
Tell me what do you see
Are these the eyes of someone you could love?
‘Cuz everything that brought me here
Well not it all seems so clear
Baby you’re the one that
I’ve been dreamin’ of
If anyone can make me fall in love
You can
Save me from myself
You Can
And it’s you and no one else

If I could wish upon tomorrow
Tonight would never end
If you asked me I would follow
But for now I’ll just pretend
‘Cuz if anyone can make me fall in love

Only you can
take me sailing in your deepest eyes
Bring me to my knees and make me cry
And no one’s ever done this
Everything was just a lie and I know
Yes, I know

This is where it all begins
So tell me it will never end
I can’t fool myself,
it’s you and no one else

If I could wish upon tomorrow
Tonight would never end
If you asked me I would follow
But for now I’ll just pretend
If anyone can make me fall in love

You Can.....

2009-04-08T19:03:00.004+08:00

I've been trying to search, for the past half an hour, for a quote that I once chanced upon but to no avail. So I gave up! Blah blah blah~ I was/wasn't myself today. But I'm alright.
Below are some quote about coffee anyways =)

Chocolate, men, coffee: some things are better rich.

Ahh this is not what i feel of course but it's interesting isn't it? Haha xD

Coffee and love taste best when hot. (Proverb)

Hmm.. but I prefer coffee when it turns cold... It's bitterness makes me shudder.

Anyways, tomorrow is the day! Election! Time for us to choose the next batch of leaders for drama! I hope we will make the right choices =X

I seriously give up finding that quote =.=

There are things that I'm suppose to 'discard' and you will help me with it.

caifeng, shi4 ni dui4 wo3 shuo1 ji4 ran2 ta1 mei2 he2 wo3 zheng4 shi4 fen1 shou3, zhe4 yi1 fen4 chu1lain4 wo3 neng2 shou3hou4 yu2 yong2yuan3 zhi1 chang2jiu3.

2009-04-06T21:22:00.002+08:00

>.< Had my last performance in DRAMA~ Which also implies that we seniors are leaving soon. It's contradicting I want to leave but at the same time I hope to stay. Can't bear to leave. Like what rachel (MY cutest CHER CHER~) said CCA made up a magnificent part of our life in school. Leaving drama would cause emptiness and life would become insipid. Besides I do love my juniors (can't say all but definitely most) although they can be very mischievous and insensitive and bu4 ting1 hua4 (but I still love you all!)

As for today's SYF, I'm so PROUD of EVERYONE! We all did a great job. So for now we can only wait for the result. Take ample rest coz I know these days had been tiring. I felt the tiredness too. (However still have got Prelim 1 to work hard for... sobz...) Thanks for all who supported drama all the way~ Our dearest instructors Claude and Sam~ and loveliest Ms Lim and Ms Phua~ Our beloved SENIORS!!! We did it din't we?! Okay pretty hype up although got a lot to work to rush later xDxD

We should start by figuring out what's wrong instead of omitting everything. It's getting to become frustrating. I don't want it to be that way. Perhaps it's my fault. But could be yours too. Let's stop guessing. It's tiring that way. Speak up. What you exactly want. Let's compromise instead. Not takling about it doesn't solve anything, right?

2009-03-22T09:18:00.002+08:00

Today's for mugging to get as many homework completed. Also I wouldn't be using the Internet unless I've got work to do as I can't stop using it once I started staring at msn windows, blogger, facebook... So ppl don't miss me!!

Okay pretty much to blog about yesterday and Thursday!

Yesterday first. It was flag day. Things went wrong from the very start when I woke up. It's really moronic. Can't find a shirt to wear since I ruined the one that I was ironing. Desperately calling and asking around. I became a 'late-worm'. Still need to thanks Eunice~ =) One of my best mate
ignored me. It just wasn't the best way to start the morning.

Just kept smiling throughout half of the day, to be friendly (you don't expect me to be asking for donation with a blacken-face right?) and to hide everything that wasn't right. I made a idiotic decision that only wasted my mrt fare (alighting at serangoon)

Okay pardon me, don't feel like blogging anymore at least for now. i'm off~

Tried writing about you for my zaji but i'm struck. nt knowing how to continue everything.

2009-03-16T21:34:00.002+08:00

Perhaps it was out of self-protection that I reacted that way? Your sudden hostility left me unshielded from piercing shards of glass on me that it hurt, upset me because I never expect that it would hurt that much. Haas. Maybe I'm just too vulnerable, low threshold you could say. But fan1lian3 is too harsh on me. (later did Meldon tell me fan1lian3 can be used in a joking manner and that's why he dislikes about technology that brings about messaging and all because you never know what was the expression that the person is trying to convey.) I retaliated because it hurts. That makes me want to push you away and I was hiding my fear. I had been rude, I apologize for it.

Figured out that I can never go too far from you, can I?

Thanks for calling although I wasn't really sure if I should answer the phone then. thanks for 'zhong4rong4'-ing my 'ren4xing4'ness...

2009-03-15T21:06:00.002+08:00

HAH~ Just realized that there is pretty much to blog about. First thing first, i haven't praise my drama for being more focus now =) Although there is definitely more room for improvement, we are improving quite a bit! This makes me hyper really!!

Then, still regarding drama. I've said this to Meldon but not the rest of the Sec 4s: I'm really fortunate to have the chance working with you all because somehow we work well together. Thanks for backing me up. Thanks for covering up for me when i'm not doing my job well . And thanks for taking care of me! So really thanks to you: Eunice, Bee, Rachel, Von,Mel, Zack, Sera! (also sry sera that your role was replaced i really enjoyed acting with you by my side we just have that 'mo4qi4' you know)

Okay back to today first. I dreamt of the wrong person =X Are dreams meant to be the exact opposite of the reality? Tell me yes, i'll be relieved. Tell me no, I might be elated. So is it a yes or no? Perhaps 'flirted' with him a bit too much le ba. haas. But that dream was erm... Romantic (blushing) ... in some way... yes... but it was rather scary too... nevertheless i don't think it meant anything la... Oh and Tien appeared in hte dream too! OMG =) The best dream I had for quite some time. Maybe it's because i don't really have the chance to be in bed long enough to really dream about something.

It's raining again~ hmm... was trying nt to be emo. So I smiled =) AND WENT TO SLEEP! (sleeping is really a luxury to a Sec 4 student you know. hee...)

Hophop back to Friday! The feel of adrenaline rush after cross country was wow! Satisfying! It nice to have you face feel warm and tomato red. okay la i'm exaggerating. Definitely not that red but yea... i seldom blush even when i'm most embasrrassed so i like the blush on my face after exercising can? =)

Sometimes i like the way that he's so full of himself (though sometimes it's just irritating.)

I kinda of understand how adrenaline works. When everyone was so tired from the run, we were all really HYPER! This totally perks me up too! Singing in class, not minding someone msging someone when i just just beside that someone! the day was fun but the night takes away the fun replacing it with tiredness.

Think i need a rest too...

2009-03-12T22:24:00.002+08:00

If my mood remains like this, I don't think I'm going to produce results! 'LOBSTER!' I have been losing everything that I can literally! First my physics txtbk now my BIO txtbk! Who the hell took my BIO!!!!!! pls return kaaes?! And didn't I lost smth else. Smth impt was missing. I hope I don't rmb anything.

FEEL LIKE CRYING SHOUTING SCREAMING SPRINTING!!!

and sleep for as long as i want and mayb dreaming abt you?

2009-03-11T21:53:00.003+08:00

Went to AMK drive-thru de Mac today with Cheryl!
I must say the place was like WOW =D
Conducive place for studying.
Besides the environment is like segregated from the bustling city...
although you can hear faintly the vehicles passing by...
but the greenery and music and strawberry sundae makes you feel like you are away for hols xD
haven't enjoy doing my hw for a long time le~
so kinda of fell in love with the place =)

today wasn't a nice day though.

i'm so not missing anyone!

2009-03-09T20:54:00.004+08:00

for 16 years of my life i haven't really learn to face the reality. heys! see i'm escaping agn!

for this CA, my chemistry was the worse science subj (shocking, i hope i do better revision nxt time). Physics was best among 3 (surprisingly, i could have done even better, marks are lost due to carelessness). Biology was stuck in btwn. a B3, A2, A1 respectively. As for other subj didn't want to mention abt them. You can guess it's not too well done. But i'll improve for the nxt tests.

the rain was falling cool and hard from the sky above. meldon said there is a sentence that describe the feeling of the rain falling onto our skin, something like: The raindrops are cold pinpricks on my skin.

I'd loved the rain because it's always the rain that accompanies me whenever i felt frustrated, distressed or bewildered. It's like the sky is crying with you. Fortunately i seldom fell sick being in the rain.

Almost wanted to go jogging in the rain but gave up the idea anyways. It'll just tired me out and i won't be able to complete my work.

Think i'm not mature enough to handle relationship. Really doubting my ability in decision making. I really need to grow up. Stop being reliance on others. Some comment that i'm independant however deep inside i know i'd always been dependent, too dependent.

Sry i really don't know what i can do. that's nth i can think of! Perhaps i should just take a step back out of everything. It's agonizing to be causing trouble for ppl esp your loved ones. i'm lost for words. It seems like no apology is going to change anything?

if the lightning is strong enough to break the triple bonds in nitrogen. what will happen nxt?

2009-03-08T20:47:00.002+08:00

Went out with Cheryl to Suntec today. We were supposed to 'explore' the career exhibition but in the end we just sat down in subway and eat, do our work, sms and all.

Crap. I've been doing rash and irrational decision nowadays. All my good intentions gave 'godawful' results.

erps. kill me!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this is infuriating!

but i can only apologise to drama, cheryl, and sebastian.

i'm sorry.

2009-03-06T22:02:00.002+08:00

Albert Einstein actually said

Gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love.

True enough we obviously knows gravity can't be the reason people fall in love with one another. Okay this is just a random quote that i came across. It just surprised me that Einstein said this.

Absence diminishes mediocre passions and increases great ones, as the wind extinguishes candles and fans fires.

Francois de La Rochefoucauld

This is the quote that i finding meaningful? Maybe to a certain extent. Sometimes i wish i was no longer in NC, i wish i was still in the everyday life of someone. I know the fear i have for the word 'distance' but i submitted to it. Perhaps this time i know i can trust. You are definitely more trustworthy than him. But maybe you are right, i'm still living in the shadow of the past. I just don't feel secure. It feels like you may just drift away.

promise, don't leave me after you make me need you.

2009-03-05T22:18:00.002+08:00

finally end of common test!!!
i know how screwed up i was.
so i'll just get over it and start working hard!
>.<

and well perhaps having cme lessons wasn't really such a waste of time.
'COMMITMENT'
well that was the topic.
how would you commit yourself into a marriage.
i actually found this passage quite easily so it seems to be rather famous and well-known.
this is the full passage,
the purple coloured words are those found in the cme worksheet.

Then Almitra spoke again and said, "And what of Marriage, master?" And he answered saying: You were born together, and together you shall be forevermore. You shall be together when white wings of death scatter your days. Aye, you shall be together even in the silent memory of God. But let there be spaces in your togetherness, And let winds of the heavens dance between you. Love one another but make not a bond of love: Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls. Fill each other's cup but drink not from one cup. Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf. Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each one of you be alone, Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music. Give your hearts, but not into each other's keeping. For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts. And stand together, yet not too near together: For the pillars of the temple stand apart, And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other's shadow.

sometimes come to think about it,
i'm still having unrealistic dreams about the future...
having a perfect wedding and all but yea...
i do know what is realistic la...
so it's all crap that i was talking about and will continue to talk about...
haha coz i'm still at the age when i can daydream.

Then another thing is meldon has been reading into the feelings and thoughts that i tried so hard to cover and not let myself realise.
and that's rather not irritating but just reminding me of something that i don't want to remember.
Perhaps some things and moments, for me, are not meant to be forgotten but just let in the memories itself.

Perhaps i still care too much but i'm just really used to it.

2009-03-01T20:20:00.002+08:00

went for a wedding dinner yesterday at meritus mandarin.
had been quite some time since i last went a wedding dinner.
and oops =x
i gave a miss for the wedding ceremony at the church.
it's the wedding of my cousin who is in the s'pore air force so the ceremony was rather different from others that i had been to.
erm. supposedly more romantic in some way.
ohh and how he proposed to his bride was reveal!
guess what?!
he wrote a book for her or compiled i'm not sure but isn't that sweet!
haha.
however the wedding dinners in m'sia were more fun than those in s'pore.
not so formal and definitely more laughter and all =)

can i not give up my tiffany ring?
i'll give up the platinum xD

2009-03-01T15:31:00.001+08:00

Till The End

All these precious moments
With you by my side
Must be a gift from heaven
That's holding me all night

I don't know how I found you
I'm thankful that I have
Now that I have a love so true
To hold, to keep, to share

In my heart I can no longer hold inside
All of the love I used to hide
I'll always be with you until the very end
In this world there in no place I'd rather be
You are my life, my soul, my girl
You through it all I know
That you've come to see that you're the one till the end

All my friends around me
Say you'd be gone too soon
Baby I'm gonna make them see
We've found our way back home

We'll always be till the end

2009-02-22T18:46:00.002+08:00

think someone needs to start to infer....
coz i've got no idea how to say all the 3-syllabus phrases...
but i've so m*** you...
kaaes i feel dumb...

2008-12-10T15:28:00.003+08:00

Hihi. Dah the days in M'sia is simple and zero climax is expected, at least not till I'm in Genting 2 days later. Sheesh =.= I've only got 2 hours but I've got so much to blog!!

The OBS camp was well a significant part of my memory. I don't think I would ever forget that 5 days in Pulau Ubin. But as people said, "OBS 来一次就好!" Okay for OBS stuff I'll blog when I'm back in Singapore.

I'm totally in love with my brother, as in since young I'd ALWAYS love him! But gosh! I was actually jealous. That girl that he has (his gf duh=.=) who always got to be by his side. Grrrr!!! Oh please even I'm prettier than her!! Bleh!!Oh seriously why has he got to be my brother, that's really dumb.... I'm so not going to be her sis the next life!! Okok... I'm just kidding =)

But earnestly he is the kind of guy that gives one absolute security. Although I don't think he can be the perfect guy. Nah never the perfect one. Him smoking destroy the word 'perfect' that was once for him. But anyhow I know who is considered perfect. Haas....

Wadeva, I'm off~

2008-11-19T13:40:00.003+08:00

Have been browsing the web since morning. Yawn, I'm tired. So here am I blogging =)

I'm aware that I've not updated for some time. Pardon me.

Here's a few picture that I came across when browsing. I thought they are rather interesting... Funny and cute houses... Want to visit them someday =)

That all... I'll be back later when I'm bored again heh xDD

2008-11-06T21:02:00.002+08:00

dumb-ass dumber-ass even dumber-ass dumbest-ass .........

LOL. I can never enjoy anything more than drama! It was so fun even before it began that I was all hyped up (with Meldon's help) trying to make Rachel help and greeting those who came into the room =)

I LOVE DRAMA!! More than anything (at least most of the time I do) else! I love how we learn and how we crap and how we laugh and we do gossiping too =) Lalas~ Never feel out of place before....

Okay practically I forgotten (I need to or at least I feel so) how I screwed my SPA today (Gosh I even remembered I took time to read the question carefully) and I'm going to do a perfect one tomorrow. Or is it a NEED to....

2008-11-05T20:59:00.000+08:00

半情歌

词:陈静楠曲:方文良编曲:吴俊毅

花接受凋零风接受追寻

心的伤还有一些不要紧

我接受你的决定

你将会被谁抱紧唱什麼歌哄他开心

我想著天空什麼时候会放晴

地球不曾为谁停一停

你的明天有多快乐不是我的

(我的明天快不快乐都是我的)

我们的爱是唱一半的歌

时间把习惯换了伤口愈合

也撤销我再想你的资格

你的祝福一半甜的一半苦的

像我手中冷掉的可可

最最教人残念的总是未完成的

我只能唱著一半的歌

(另一半的歌 ................)

2008-11-05T20:43:00.002+08:00

Rawr! Not much in the mood to blog about anything. Just hope that I don't screw up tomorrow and the day after that. Today's Chinese was so-so although beforehand I was all panicky. Whatever it is I have put in all that I have. I'm not going to do any better if you give me the chance to redo it so I'm contented with any grade that allow me to continue with HCL.

Nothing much to do for preparation right? Praying that I can understand the question.

Lalas~

2008-10-18T22:14:00.002+08:00

--只对你说

--靠岸

I so not in the mood to write about anything because emo monster is munching on me... I don't know why I have made the decision and I totally got no idea what I'm doing. What the hell is it that I am allowing myself to fall into?

Anyways the above 2 video, I saw the guy singing 爱的就是你 in Charmaine's blog. I thought his voice was not bad at all. Okay but I not mesmerised like Charmaine so yea and I prefer this 2 songs than 爱的就是你…… Ok whatever... Enjoy~

2008-10-16T22:15:00.002+08:00

Like always, my result as below. I not quite satisfied though. They were pretty bad.

English--19/30, 22/30, 29/30
HCL-- 16/20, 47/70, 83/110
Emath-- 55/80, 80/100
Amath-- 53/80, 70/100
Physics-- 70
Chemistry--75
Biology--76.7
Social Studies-- 66

That's all....
Sheesh=.=
I wanted to kill myself when seeing the careless mistakes I made in the Chemistry paper...

2008-10-16T19:31:00.002+08:00

我还是用华文打字好了。不知如何将心情用英文表示出来。

我知道为什么我想待在雨中……我知晓我没有那么容易生病，可我就是想以生病作借口，好好的休息。因为突然觉得有点累，还是其实很疲惫？我需要安静好久好久。

我疯了。真得疯了。但在一个人不清楚自己在感觉什么时，心中的风暴有多强，你别去预测。不知道自己在为什么事伤心，或是为谁。只是感觉到心再不拿出来晾晒，它会窒息。我得好好想想我要的是什么，我在做些什么。更糟的是，很想哭，却哭不出来。或许在之前把心情埋起来时，埋得太深了？想翻出来时，却有点无从下手。

我需要雨。微微的细雨不够。我需要的场滂沱大雨。我得被浸湿在大雨中。

今天下午，正下这雨。在雨中漫步回家后，换了建深色的 Tee，疯狂的我，在这下雨的午后，跑步去了。这还是第一次在雨中跑步，冷冷的，感觉挺不错的？大约20多分钟后，跑到了Punggol Park 你猜猜我干嘛了？我去荡了20多分钟的秋千。荡倒有点作呕的感觉，却还没想好我真正要的是什么。我知道我在寻找什么，只是我迷失方向了吗？

在池边呆了好久，我想清楚了。我还是固执、执著的那个笑眉。好像还是没有变过。我知道这样的执著不是好事。始终还是没有改掉。

只是接下来，我得戒掉无意中总是看着你的习惯，依恋或已不再依恋，已不重要了。是过了太久了，成了习惯了，所以得戒掉了。

而我该做些什么，我能做些什么。你——我想我会跟着你的脚步。一年后再见啦~

Sometimes perhaps I said I was alright, and I doubt if I were. I just want to seems to be fine. I want myself to be good too.

2008-10-14T21:13:00.002+08:00

《在你眼里(地下鐵片尾曲)》-同恩
词：邬裕康曲：陈达伟制作：邵泰磐

没有风　云以为自己可以慢慢移动
没有你　我以为世界照常转动
直到光　照不进我那半隐居的窗口
直到爱　照醒我隐藏起来的脆弱

其实我爱着你　只是我骗自己
我要的世界　原来在你眼里
其实我抗拒你　却找到更多的证明
那干了的泪　原来在你眼里

转了弯　而以为就能找到那面大海
走的远　我以为只有这双脚会酸
直到雨　告诉我一个人撑伞的孤单
直到爱　推倒了我面前的勇敢

其实我爱着你　只是我骗自己
我要的世界　倒映在你眼里
其实我抗拒你　却找到更多的证明
那干了的泪　原来在你眼里
爱着你　我懂得不再骗自己
那明天的我　正在等你　相遇

若一个人撑伞会感到孤单，那就别拿伞，在雨中散步吧 =）大自然是属于每一个人的！

This came to me when I was walking to school that rainy morning. My red-pink umbrella was sheltering me and this song played in my mp4... So I was like closing my umbrella since I was already nearing school le... See I never ever mind the rain beating down on me~

Ohh and I never knew this was the 片尾曲 for 地下铁... Hmm... I think I understand a little more and felt a bit more for this song now =)

2008-10-14T20:31:00.002+08:00

Cheers!!! Exams are OVER!!! But ohh... Life become prosaic once again. Haha. After working for about 2 weeks and now there is nothing much to do, trying to get use to the momentum change.

Readings to complete:
1. Totto-chan
2. Mansfield Park
3. Message in a Bottle
4. To kill a Mocking Bird
5. Kiss Kiss (Roald Dahl)

There's so many movies that I want to catch! I'll be strapped if I were to go watch all of them. So in the end I settled down with these books. Reading is a enjoyment that is F.O.C.

Just realised that I seldom read Roald Dahl's work. Recommended by Jiahui so I took it. It's short stories I think.

现在阅读的时间, 已成了一种施舍, 所以呢我要好好把握 =)

怎么办还得做好那回成绩的准备… 叹气… 第一次不想拿回华文考卷。真的一点都不想再看到我完成的华文卷！

Self set task:
1. 2 or 3 or 4 Birthday Cards
2. 2 more cards for seniors (If I've got enough time)
3. Write up 2 chinese compositions
4. Revise bio chapter 10

and so on......

2008-10-01T22:26:00.001+08:00

Ahhh!!! I just wasted the day off =.= Or I shall mug tonight...

2008-09-29T20:41:00.002+08:00

I think I would prefer to forget today's date but I was aware that today was coming since last week. It has been such a long time……

没有期待什么。

白日梦不会一直成真。

滴。

泪珠在眼角滑落……

放心，它是冰的。

是天空的泪滴，我哭不出来。

瞭望这那片草地，天空下着微微细雨。

矛盾了很久。

最后还是去了。

没有等日落，只是呆了几分钟，离开了。

很想去回忆每一个人。

但是现在不是时候，没有闲空。

我很好 =)

草地没有回忆里的那么绿，那么辽阔。

相信回忆里的夕阳还是最艳丽的。

所以就让回忆这样美好下去……

只是回忆嘛……

=）

可恶和庆幸的是

我的心很平静……

2008-09-25T18:23:00.002+08:00

If what I had been working so much for, the miracle that I could still work with him, needed to be given to someone else. Would I really agree to it? I don't know. I do know I am not really up to it. Whatever it might as well just be another "it doesn't matter anymore" type of answer... We'll see...

2008-09-24T21:48:00.002+08:00

人生总会有说不出、笑不出、哭不出、唱不出的时候……

无所谓……

~~因为有时候无语是最好的沟通。~~

只是不同意最后一句话……
我承认我贪心。
一句问候，一个微笑，不能满足我。
心，空虚得让人恐慌……

2008-09-20T21:23:00.002+08:00

It didn't feel right. I should be screaming hysterically but I just find it humorous or unbelievable. "Just have fun." was the mentality I had, Leroy too I suppose. The debate was so funny towards the end when Disneyland and MacDonald came into view. We were all laughing. I was dumbfounded seriously. This miracle which I thought only could come true in Disneyland, actually happened. I did not really feel that great nevertheless I was glad. Haha. Cliched the chance to continue working with you. You somehow just have the something in you that calm me down, making me feel safe? Lol.

We got into finals. I don't know who I actually prefer to debate against who.

Okay the next thing is, I'm leaving this blog to rot for two or three weeks. Gonna start preparing for SA2 le ...

避风港

有你的地方就是我的避风港
在你的身旁才能找到归属感

如果说离开了我的港湾
我会怎么样
我会坚强面对风雨，随着海浪荡漾
直到回到我的港湾

鱼儿说：“我的海洋最深沉。”
鸟儿说：“我的天空最辽阔。”
蝶儿说：“我的花丛最芳香。”
我说：“我的港湾最温暖。”

鱼儿说：没有了海洋我不能存活。”
鸟儿说：“没有了天空我无法翱翔。”
蝶儿说：“没有了花丛我失去了我的舞台。”
我说：“没有了港湾，我不会是我。”

你说我该到外面精彩的世界看看
但鱼儿、鸟儿、蝶儿都对我说
离开了自己的避风港是可怕的
我该怎么离开我的港湾

我的心对我这么说
所以我亦这样对你说
“我要和我的港湾一起看世界！
有了港湾再可怕的世界我多会感到安全
有了港湾再大的困难我也有勇气克服
有了港湾再寒冷的天气我会感觉到温暖。”

因为你——我的港湾曾对我说
你会一直当我的避风港，
你会陪我观看着世界
陪我面对困难
历尽沧桑
所以我不能离开我的港湾
不能失去你我的港湾……

若我是一株玫瑰，那你一定是我的小王子。

Right, so how's this poem? Rather weird I feel but I'm proud of myself coming up with this. Bye for now~

The next miracle that could happen is that I do well for SA2 =)

2008-09-16T22:59:00.001+08:00

The reason that I hope the miracle could happen this Friday is a rather personal. Pardon me, I think I will try to clinch every chances to work with you =)

2008-09-16T20:29:00.002+08:00

The dramatic thing that happened during drama. Alright, I know this sounds weird. That's the word Ms Lim used to describe what occurred towards the end of the session 'dramatic'. Someone tried to open the door but in vain... We were being locked in the InE Room! People were practically shouting and screaming for help. Oh it was chaotic! Our first heroine, Ms Lim Ker Sin, called the general office. We waited patiently (although there were people who were still fidgety) for our second heroine Mdm Tan came up. "门没有锁。” It was that the door was faulty. Something was protruding out, preventing us from opening the door. AHH! We got more anxious. And argh! I hate the feeling being locked in a room. Suffocating. The room was filled with screaming and people could still be laughing running about chasing one another when I could not catch my breath. I needed to sit down but I don't think I should, still need to control the crowd. But in the end i gave up and rest. "HELP!! WE ARE LOCKED IN!!!"screaming continued. If I was not feeling unwell, I might just have found it humorous and joined in the fun instead I was irritated. Sorry that I actually did shouted at you all but I desperately need some silence. I was so unsuccessful that you all gave me less than 5seconds of silence in total. *faint* Later came our third savior--Mdm Ngo!!! She use a pair of scissors to flattened the protruding part and we were FREE!!! Like the air molecules, we escaped from the opening in great speed =) Beatrice actually kissed Mdm Ngo to thank her, yea like the others, I gave a hug. We owe her a big thank you!

Today's filming project was fun too! Glad that our group could start the ball rolling =) If not it will be prosaic lines memorizing session again. We are so going to finished filming our script by Thursday. Get it done and over with! It will turn out to be a fabulous video I feel with Claude and Samantha as the director and that High Definition Video cam nothing could go wrong =)

Nevertheless, today is a exhausting day. Oh gosh why is it that all the tests must be on Thursday?! Biology, E Math and SS! Friday we've got debate and chemistry test. I can only start proper revision this weekend. So much for taking part in debate but I'm not regretting it.

Trying hard to not let myself have too many free time to think. My brain loss its ability of being logical when I try to think.

2008-09-14T22:50:00.001+08:00

Feverish~ I'm radiating heat... Haha. Nevertheless Panadol is going save my day and I need to continue with my work. That idiotic yaohua wasted so much of my time. Argh, why won't he jsut get it that wanxin meant what she said.

Ahh I'm going in to the debate room well-prepared I promised myself =)

Adieus~

2008-09-14T17:40:00.002+08:00

Lol... Wanxin and I were caught in the rain!!! Geez... Luckily we were not really drenched =)
And hey... Look forward to my new haircut tomorrow although it might not look that suitable but yea. I felt that do need a change... Beside shorter hair is easier to manage... Got to start SS-ing!! Adieus xD

2008-09-14T14:34:00.005+08:00

不一样的雨声

我们相约在雨中散步，
你坚持一人一把伞，
还坚持要跟别人不一样。
我们的雨声，我们的快乐，
也跟别人不一样。

恶作剧

会不会掉下来，泼落一地的水，还听到嘲弄的笑声。
会不会掉下来，撞昏了头，还听到欢呼的叫声。
在来不及互相拥抱，并学习相爱之前，
我们的情谊，
就在这些小小的恶作剧中，慢慢冷却。

2008-09-14T14:14:00.002+08:00

lalas~ So I added a song to the blog :) Was pondering which song? Over the rainbow then since this blog is a RAINBOW one!! This is my favorite version of over the rainbow by Angela Zhang that is. Ok that's all for now. Oh gosh tonnes of work to do and revision to complete!! I'm so dead... Haha xD

2008-09-13T18:04:00.002+08:00

Lalas~ In a few moments I'll be at home alone. Perhaps it's not a bad thing. But I would break a promise that is. Ahh... I told 黄老师 I'll go back to visit her today. Never mind :) I do have somethings to finish too. And GOSH! Still one more debate to go before I can concentrate on SA2. I wonder if anyone from 6A went back? No one called to ask me along. Geez....

THBT Government should provide free health care. Opposition.

Not bad at all a topic to debate about. After this debate thing, I swear I won't do debate anymore. It makes me feel inferior. Hate to admit it but yes I felt it. I have long known that I can't present my thoughts across well even when explaining something. Let alone debate! It only tires me out.

I was surprised that we got in yesterday. As in I was preparing to just loss and get things over and done with. I know Sebast will kill me. But I disappoint him. And still feeling bad about it.

Yesterday was so not my day. Although I had my dark chocolate and a few hour of sleep after the debate. I was still groggy I supposed that I did that kinda of idiotic thing. Sheesh =.=

I wasn't that into you, I told Jiahui and I know perfectly well that that's a lie. Searched for you, but I didn't see you. Msg-ed you. There's no reply. Then I knew that you had something on, so you would not be coming. Crazily I imagined that somehow you will be supporting me and somehow I know I need to calm down, so I did. You're the worst infatuation I ever had.

Argh! Hoping the celebration down there ends soon. The on-going karaoke session is making me regret not going!!

2008-09-11T21:28:00.002+08:00

I'M EXHAUSTED~ Deprived of sleep. I'm turning into a panda or worse a zombie! I'm definitely going to get a good rest tomorrow.

I'm praying that I don't screw up tomorrow's debate. 3pm @ 3G classroom. Sigh, why can't it be 3I? At least I'll feel home. Now I can only do my best in memorising although this might not be the right way. But anyhow, this is all that I can do.

Something's troubling me... Why did I become so unsure all of a sudden? I know what my heart is feeling, but my brain told me to stop daydreaming, stop thinking too much. Also I'm not sure what is it that I wanted. Obviously I won't know what are his thoughts.

It might as well be I'm thinking too much again...

GOOD LUCK AND ALL THE WAY WE GO FOR DEBATE!!!

2008-09-09T19:30:00.002+08:00

Watching the movie alone for the first time wasn't a that forlorn experience after all. Perhaps because there were not many people watching Wall.E yesterday. Still, being kind of unfortunate, a couple was beside me. I was rather glad that to my the other side there was no one. If I were to choose again, I would never choose to watch this alone. Sheesh. I would definitely go grab someone and watch it again next week. If I have the time that is (hopefully I do)... Didn't want to write about the storyline. I won't want to reveal it to anyone who haven't watch and is keen to watch the movie. Although Wall.E is not as interesting as compared to other movies and I thought in some parts it was pretty expected what would happen but anyhow this movie is damn sweet!!!

叹气…或许是太过幻想幸福，之后的副作用？怎么感觉到这般沮丧，我亦说不出理由。我能够压抑这伤感，但这意味着当我坚持不住时，我会崩溃。

2008-09-07T21:28:00.001+08:00

I am so going to .... NOT MISS YOU!
haha xD

2008-09-07T15:16:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was almost a perfect day, until I missed the last bus and can't get home. Perhaps it was like the ball that Cinderella attended? As the clock struck 12 yesterday night, all the terrible things happened. Geez.

I had quite a 'first time' experience yesterday. First time being on the motorcycle at the same time using the phone. First time going to Max Pavillion, and watched my first concert there. First time being in a sardine with heels in the bus. First time going to a friend house to 'stay over' although I went back late in the night...

First pleasant thing that happened was that my computer finally was fixed! The 'doctor' took about 2 hours to get it 'cured' so finally I can get my fingers running over the keyboard again.

Next thing was something that I thought I wouldn't have done. I enjoyed it thoroughly, the time in the library. I felt jittery on the way there. God I've long forgotten that anxious feeling. Whatever you might say. So whatever lor can? I'd learnt a lot of things =) Thanks to WLZ~ haha...

The Yellow Ribbon Concert was O.O... Fun lah can!! Although at the beginning of the concert it was quite prosaic but eventually at the end when Zhou Hua Jian appears.... SCREAMING STARTED! His voice is hypnotic!!! 朋友、花心、明天我要嫁给你啦… I was like telling Jiahui that 结婚的时候就要唱着几首歌 haha... Oh I left out Nick!! He so damn amazing!!! With or without specs he still looked as cute as ever! His voice is full of 爆发力too! Didn't want to use up my hp battery to take the photo of him, so I actually took none. I rather sms...

About staying over at Jiahui's house. How I hope that aunt just let me sleep there until the next morning but she insisted that my uncle pick me up and send me home. I understand that she was worried but still I was really tired. It was really cold on the motorcycle at 4plus am. Almost freezing I dare say. So I just closed my eyes and 'slept'...

If Jiahui had already got on to her bus when I walked back to her after finding out my last 86 had gone, I would have cried being helpless and all. Seriously I wouldn't know what to do. Hp was out of battery and no public phone was in sight and my feet were aching...

So a big big THANKS to Jiahui!

2008-09-07T11:13:00.000+08:00

千里寄相思

秋天里金黄色的风飘满我流萤般的相思，

枯黄的树叶飘散在初秋的小路，

想你曾经飞舞过的我的世界，

开始寂静无声。

曾经走过很多孤单的日子，

风是透明的，

天空是蓝色的，

草儿是绿色的。

孤单的我，

总是寂寞而写意地享受一个人的浪漫，

那是多么清纯和风清云淡的日子啊。

2008-09-07T10:33:00.000+08:00

>.<
Tada!
A new blog again...
Can't keep myself away from blogging so....
=)

But I might not be updating often,
there are a lot of things to do nowadays I reckon that everyone does have work to be completed...

Most probably I would be putting up some meaningful lyrics, Jimmy's work, and maybe my own work too, up here so~
Do come visit when you got the spare time...